Milly ~~

The ONLY one who knows every single detail of everything about me.. and listened to all of my complaints..and knows what my dreams are..Who TRULY knows me more than i even know my self..
is Milly. :)

I found one of my 5th grade school notebooks and i used to write stories in it all the time for writing.. Hahahah :) It was like a diary thing only my teacher reads and grades it.

One of them was this: (word for word)

My Bear Milly
"Three years ago, in Cristmas, me my mom and dad and my brother Skylar went to the mall to eat lunch for cristmas.
After we ate, we were looking around the mall for a gift for me and my brother. We looked in a store called Bild-a-bear. My eyes shined up as i saw this bear that was as cuter then anything in the world. I wanted to get that bear so much that i cried for it. I was only 7 years old anyway. My mom had to get it for me. I stuffed her, i put a hart in her, made a wish that said.."I wish this bear would be a live." but of corse it wouldn't ever come "alive".
I pick out her clothes for her to wear. The last thing i had to do was to name her "Milly". I screamed "I'll call her Milly!"
As we came home to put Milly in a safe spot so "coco" my dog won't get it again like what she did to my first bear Twinkle. Me and Milly have a lot of feelings for each other. We have sad feelings together. Most of the time when i made at my brother Skylar, me and milly talks to each other.
She is very important to me because when I lost her in California with my cousins, I cried until i had her. My aunt sent her in a big envolpop. I started crying agin when i got her.
I would feel very sad if i had lost her. I wouldnt have any thing to hug if i had lost her, even if she was the one who got lost. She's my little sister in my imagiation in my bear family."

:)))

Letter to Heaven

Hi there Mr. True Love ..

I dont know exactly who u r...but i know u exist somewhere in the world.
I think about you when i go to bed..and moments when i feel hope is inside of me to find you. Im still young and ive honestly never fell in love with anyone yet...

I know from observation that love can be the most stressful and hard thing to deal with. Especially if you care about the other person very much..but some other things get in the way of dealing with the realationship you have..

But Love can also be the most wonderful and magical thing there ever is :) Which is why everyone craves that love feeling... to hold and kiss .. Love is the only ractional act that makes sense.

As people..with a heart that pounds, and a pulse that moves....
We deserse that feeling of fullness in our heart when we are in love.

I think it can happen when everything comes together and you love yourself before anyone can make there way into the dark tunnle and finds you<3

For me..I want YOU Mr.True Love ...

cuz u are the only person in this entire world that will make my body filled with a bubbly mess of happiness and romantic wonders..

Isnt that our mission in life??
To find our soul mate and spend every internal moment together in heaven..? I dont know if thats my wishful thinking or not but...

i like to think its true. ( :